december

it seems almost negligent to feel this nonchalence despite the first ca of this academic year taking place in 4 days time. it really has been quite an eternity since the last written medicine test, not counting the clinical examinations which are a different matter altogether. how odd this feeling of idleness. i'm sure it's fueled in part by the knowledge that about now, most other students in singapore would have finished or nealy finished their examinations. also it's nearing christmas and as the lights sparkle down orchard road, so does my mind wander. i want to be overwhelmed by christmas cards shopping for presents for my friends. i want to start planning for christmas get togethers. i want to be excited about my church's candle-light service. i want to prepare for this season symbolic of the gift of love.

i don't want to have to think about tests.